Well, 2012 was a much tougher year than expected. I was SO excited to start working for Weight Watchers at the end of 2011. I started as a receptionist and quickly trained to be a leader and location coordinator. I thought helping others would be so rewarding, but I didn’t end up feeling like I was helping others all that much. I was too overwhelmed and overworked. I stopped taking care of myself. I was at WW so much while working that I didn’t want to attend another meeting as a member. Plus I guess I felt that I shouldn’t need the meeting since I was so saturated in the topics while preparing to lead my own meeting.
Once I finally gave up the 2nd job, it was hard for me to go to meetings because I was embarrassed about quitting. I was afraid people would judge me or not treat me the same. It seems silly when I think about it, but feelings are not rational!
|01/03/12||169.2||5.6||-76.6||I’ve been working several nights a week and weekends at my WW job. I like it but I am not taking care of me! I am 11 pounds over goal…|
|03/06/12||158.4||-0.8||-87.4||I’m finally back at my WW goal and have lost 9 weeks in a row!!!
Clearly I know how to lose the weight. I just have to work on keeping it off…..
|04/10/12||DIDN’T GO TO MEETING|
|04/17/12||154.6||-1.8||-91.2||This is my lowest weight EVER!
It’s been over a year since I had any weight loss milestones, and it feels great!
|04/24/12||DIDN’T GO TO MEETING|
|05/01/12||DIDN’T GO TO MEETING|
|05/08/12||DIDN’T GO TO MEETING|
|05/15/12||DIDN’T GO TO MEETING|
|05/22/12||DIDN’T GO TO MEETING|
|05/29/12||DIDN’T GO TO MEETING|
|06/12/12||DIDN’T GO TO MEETING|
|06/26/12||DIDN’T GO TO MEETING|
|07/03/12||DIDN’T GO TO MEETING|
|07/10/12||DIDN’T GO TO MEETING|
|07/17/12||163.2||4.0||-82.6||See a trend? Not going to meetings = weight gain!|
|07/24/12||DIDN’T GO TO MEETING|
|09/11/12||DIDN’T GO TO MEETING|
|09/29/12||167.2||-1.0||-78.6||I am no longer employed by WW. Time to focus on me again!|
|10/02/12||DIDN’T GO TO MEETING|
|11/06/12||DIDN’T GO TO MEETING||I’m feeling weird about going to meetings since I recently quit working for WW. I feel like people might judge me for it or something.|
|11/13/12||DIDN’T GO TO MEETING|
|11/20/12||DIDN’T GO TO MEETING|
|11/27/12||DIDN’T GO TO MEETING|
|12/04/12||173.6||3.8||-72.2||I didn’t go to any meetings in November, and it shows!|
|12/11/12||DIDN’T GO TO MEETING|
|12/18/12||DIDN’T GO TO MEETING||What is wrong with me?! Why can’t I get it under control?|
|12/25/12||DIDN’T GO TO MEETING|
I only attended 31 meetings out of 52. It’s better than 50%, but it is not what I need to be successful. I was losing steadily at the beginning of the year, but that was only because my job with WW was on the line. (You have to stay within 2 pounds of your goal to avoid being on probation.) As soon as I hit my lowest weight, I began stress eating again. I was stressed having two jobs and dealing with the internal struggle between doing what was best for me and doing what was best for others.
I gained 19 pounds between April and December!! I’m ending this year 15 pounds over my WW Lifetime goal. I should note that I’m still down 72 pounds total, but it’s hard to be excited about that when I’m gaining week after week. I feel a little out of control right now and I need to get it together before this 15 pounds becomes 25 or 50!!