I apologize that I haven’t posted in 3 weeks! My last post was July 15. On the evening of July 15, my life got turned completely upside down after a simple trip to Walgreens!
We were told 2 1/2 years ago that we wouldn’t be able to get pregnant on our own. They did give us a 1% chance, but to me that meant 0%. If we didn’t get pregnant when we were really trying and paying attention to my ovulation, why would it happen any other time? With those odds and the medical challenges we had, why even hope for it?
We decided that fertility treatments and adoption weren’t right for us and just felt that it wasn’t meant to be. It was REALLY hard for a long time, but we grieved, we processed, and eventually we moved on. I started the blog back up and was focusing on running, developing new friendships, planning vacations, etc. Having a baby was no longer on our radar.
SURPRISE! God had other plans! Here we are, pregnant at age 38! It was completely unexpected we were totally unprepared emotionally and financially! I keep reminding myself that the most important thing for the baby is lots of love which we definitely have. Everything else is just “stuff” and we’ll figure it out somehow. Everyone says you’re never ready, but I still would have liked to have more of a plan. Planning is just my style, but I’m trying to roll with the punches!
I haven’t touched my blog because I didn’t know what to say. Weight loss was the furthest thing from my mind once I found out. My head has been swimming with worry and fear and excitement and panic and disbelief. I think part of me kept expecting to start my period a few days later. I thought maybe it was a fluke that I was pregnant and that it would end as quickly as it started. I didn’t want to talk about it publicly but I didn’t want to be dishonest, so I guess I just avoided my blog altogether. I apologize if I let any of you down or left you wondering what happened to me!
I had my first pregnancy check up on Friday, July 31. We had our first ultrasound on Tuesday, August 4. Now I can breathe a HUGE sigh of relief. Everything is normal. My blood tests were normal. The baby’s size and heartbeat are normal. It’s not twins. (whew!) The baby is safely in my uterus and not stuck in my fallopian tubes. So far, so good. My due date is March 8, 2016. Here’s the first picture of our little peanut!
I’m not sure exactly what direction my blog will take while I’m pregnant. Obviously I can’t focus on losing weight, but I do want to focus on continuing to eat healthy so that I gain the RIGHT amount of weight. I’m only supposed to gain 25-35 pounds while pregnant, and I’d like it to be all baby weight! I have gained about 10 pounds over the past 2 months just from making poor choices. Little did I know that those choices were probably being influenced by my hormones all along!
I’m having several problems so far. Being tired is a HUGE trigger for me that makes me want to eat when I’m NOT REALLY HUNGRY. When you’re pregnant, you’re tired a lot. Like you haven’t slept in days tired. Like fall asleep standing up tired. That has made it really hard for me to keep making smart choices and to avoid snacking.
I also know that I need to be more focused on providing the baby nutrition and less focused on how many points I’m eating, but I don’t want that to be an excuse to overeat either. I’m not supposed to gain any weight during the first trimester, and I’ve been gaining!
I’m learning that I have to eat every 2 hours to avoid nausea, and I’m craving carbs. Bread and pasta has never sounded so good to me! It’s hard trying to eat a balanced diet when you are having cravings for some things and other things turn your stomach!
Since I’m not allowed to attend Weight Watchers while pregnant, I am concerned about losing my support system. I welcome any support and encouragement and I’ll try to do the same for you. I may not post as often depending on how I’m feeling and it may not always be about weight loss, but I hope you’ll bear with me during this huge transition in my life. After March, I’ll need to really focus on weight loss again!